Sep 262016
Here here some words from my beloved teacher Papaji as support  ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

“When you are out walking and you become tired you stop, you sit down, you relax. So when you get tired of trying to find solutions to your problems, when you find no solution, sit down. By sit down I mean, don’t try to solve the problem at all – the problem is in the past, it is not now. Don’t think about past problems, just leave them alone and sit down. This is the moment of relaxation. You only have to allow this, listen to it, do not do anything.

Just listen: Don’t go to the past. The past is a problem, the past is mind. When you go to the past all will be problems so don’t go to the past. The mind is the past and the past is a graveyard. Don’t go to the graveyard. All problems are dead, so return to this moment without trying to solve the problem. Trying has put you in trouble, so don’t touch this trying any more.
Simply sit down, keep quiet. Keep quiet for one moment. This is the moment you need, this is the moment of rest. Keep quiet for a moment without going to the past and you will find relaxation. There is no other way – simply do not think of the past. First help yourself – which means to not think – and then if you still need to you can ask me for help.
Just for this moment do not think, but direct your mind to its Source. Bring the mind which is thinking – which is going to the past – to face this present moment, and this will give you eternal rest.
Help yourself not to look to past moments and do you find any problems? In this moment, without going to the past, where is the problem? Has it gone away? Then you have helped yourself. This is truly Self help.” ~ Papaji

Sep 052016


Are you willing ?

You say you want to be true, to be free, to be your self, but do you really?

Are you willing to risk everything in order to be free here now ?

Are you willing to see what the unconscious habits and tendencies are that keep the cycle of upset, denial and fluctuating emotional responses in play ?

There is often some habit, behaviour or reaction that reoccurs in ones life, that we seem somehow to be oblivious to.

Are you willing to pierce the lie of what you have been believing to be true about you, about others, about life?

Are you willing to see, to experience, to feel the truth of how this plays out in your life, no matter how uncomfortable that may be, to face everything that you have ever felt and believed to be true?

This willingness is the entryway to being true.

What dos this mean to face everything? – it means just that – everything – face everything that you have ever felt and believed to be true, the lie of ego and the illusion of separation. To come face to face with what you are running towards, or away from, or moving against – be it love, connection, unworthiness, un-lovability, betrayal, safety, fear, security, loss, control, rejection, sex, lust, longing, needs, being right, wrong, blamed, not knowing – the list goes on and on ….

It is in the willingness to be true that all can be revealed.

You will see all the ways you move and dodge and weave in order to get or avoid some version of what you are hoping will fulfill you, complete you or give you what you are longing for. There is nothing for you to actually ‘do’ other that be open to the truth of what has been habitually occurring, and open to the deeper truth that has always remained untouched by any of it.

What do you really want? – now you can be real, now you can be truthful in making this choice when you say you want to be true, to be free, to be your self – In the willingness to speak the truth of your own self, you discover that you have always been FREE !!
Namaste ~ Yantra-ji

“We are so blessed to have the opportunity in this lifetime to sit in silence, to reflect, to inquire into the nature of truth and Self. Come home to yourself ! Who you really are at the core, in this very moment, is this that has always been here, this that always Is, the silent unchanging awareness” – Namaste Yantra-ji

Aug 222016


Meeting Death – Meeting Life

We have just offered a one-day Satsang Retreat ‘Meeting Death – Meeting Life’ – an invitation to really open, to meet death and meet life fully.
Many beloveds came to share in this sacred and tender time together, taking the opportunity to explore, to inquire, and to ask deeper questions about death, pain, life, love, loss, identity:
What is death?

Who is born, and who or what is it that dies?

What is never born and never dies?

What is here when we remain in the story of ‘if only’ or ‘what if’ or ‘why’?

How can we truly love, if we are holding back from fully meeting all that is here?

When we are available to meet all that arises, all of the pain, the shock, the heart break just as it is, the rawness, the realness of whatever arises in the moment – what is discovered?

How can we bear the pain of death, of loss?

How can we bear all of the suffering and the tragedy, in our own lives and in the world?

We have all heard the saying ‘Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional’ – in the willingness to remain open we discover the truth, a peace that is always here, in the midst of all pain.
The ongoing invitation is to take this opportunity, to open freshly into the discovery of what is here when there is a willingness to meet everything, uncensored. Discover what remains untouched by death.  In the meeting of death fully, something fresh is discovered – we are here, fully present, able to love fully, to meet life fully – as life itself.

The month of August is the anniversary of the passing and the funeral of my teenage son Cohen, who died unexpectedly in a car accident on the 21st August in 2012. At this time, over the past 3 years, we have offered a 10 day memorial in our home from the 21st – 31st August. This has been a time of retreat and inner reflection, a time of introspection, support and sharing for friends, family and our community to gather together, a time to really meet death and life fully.

This year the mysterious hand of grace was calling me to offer in a different way. As many of you are aware since moving from the Northern Beaches of Sydney last year to the beautiful Glenning Valley on The Central Coast, we have been offering one-day retreats. This year through this mysterious call of grace, this one-day retreat “Meeting Death – Meeting Life’, was called into being, occurring on the 21st August, on the anniversary of my son’s passing.

All I can ever do is to say yes to this call, to surrender, and allow this offering to come through.

~ Namaste Yantra-ji.

Aug 152016

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‘Be’ here as you are!
It is an interesting thing the mind, and the thoughts that arise. Most people instantly believe the content of the thoughts that arise without question and are unaware that the mind is not who they are.

Recently I shared with you that I was nudged by grace to set the date for our August Satsang retreat on the 4 year anniversary of my sons death. I have learnt to trust these nudges regardless of the arising of the mind. Even so I became aware of a single thought – that went something like this ‘you don’t know how you will ‘be’ on that day’ – it was a great opportunity to really take a look at this thought – and to share with you what arose.

We often have these types of thoughts, How will I be? ..Can I cope?.. What will happen then?… etc … so what does this actually mean, how will I ‘be’? – in the thoughts world of creation, it is relating to physically, mentally, emotionally and energetically – so the truth is we can never know how we will be in any of these states of form other than here right now.

The truth is there is never a time that we will know how we will ‘be’, or ‘feel’ or ‘act’ in the future. We do not know how we will ‘be’ in the next moment, the next week, the next year. We do not know how we will be in any circumstance or situation. We may have an inkling or a nudge to follow, even so, there is nothing other than here now, so we can never know anything other that this experience that is happening right here, right now.

The arising of these types of thoughts are the minds way of asserting some type of control over a situation that cannot be controlled, trying to create a sense of the known, a sense of safety and security in the unknown. This projection of a thought into the future creates a sense of fear ( along with other emotional responses ) to have you be wary of what is to come – it is part of the animal survival mechanism, yet has no real place in truth.

Who you are is here now, as this unchanging awareness. There is such freedom in the act of inquiry to see through the lie and limitations of the egoic survival drives – what remains is the peace and freedom that is always and has always been here – as you .

The next time any thought arises, notice what the content is, notice regardless of the content how the thought is not relevant to this moment, allow your attention and awareness to remain here, present as your own self untouched by any rippling of these thought waves. If an emotional response arises, the same is true, allow it to be as it is, arising and falling, the same is also true for any bodily reaction, they all come and go, they all arise and pass.

Be here as you are! Keep your attention here, on what cannot change, the changeless – you are That !

All love always – Namaste Yantra-ji


Aug 012016


The True Invitation of Satsang

My beloved teacher Papaji said ‘Call Off The Search’ – Have you ? Have you called of the search?

If not, why not?

What are you still searching for, waiting for, wanting?

If we treat Satsang as just a short time to come together, as just another experience, then go back to our lives, we miss a precious opportunity.
What if this were the only opportunity?

What if there was not another Satsang, not another meeting, not another retreat, no other time to ask a question, no other time to speak the truth, to discover what is here? – What would you ask now? What is it that you would want now?

Right here, right now, is the only moment there is, there is not another. We live as though there will always be another time, a next time, a next moment.

What if you were to stop, and experience the truth of this moment here, now, only here? No movement of mind, no following of thought, no following of sensation or emotion, what is truthfully discovered here, now?

Maybe there is something that needs to be met? If so, open to that, and them what is discovered to be deeper?

What is freshly discovered here?

This that you are cannot be discovered anywhere other that here where you are – You cannot be anywhere other than here.

So what is here?

When will this, that you have already discovered as your own self, be enough?

Beloved Papaji says ‘I have given you a Jewel and you throw it away’ – so I ask again, when really, will this that you have already discovered to be your own self be enough?

Give your attention here, to this, this that is only to be found here, not to something that was experienced before, as some wondrous phenomenal experience that you are trying to cling to, and not later to some sought after experience that you are seeking to re-create.

Stop seeking and thinking that this that you are is ‘something’, discover this that is nothing – nothing means nothing, no thing, no thought, no experience, no emotion, no sensation.

Yes really nothing – give your attention here, to this that is already ‘here as you’!  – and you will discover this that is nothing, fresh, free, never before discovered.

Discover this that is always and remain as that !

~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Jul 252016

Celebrating Guru Purnima ( Guru Poornima )
On Tuesday evening the 19th July, it was the full moon celebration of Guru Purnima.

The name ‘Guru Purnima’ comes from ‘Guru’ referring to ‘the teacher’ and ‘Purnima’ referring to ‘the full moon’. There are many days and types of Puja ( prayer, offerings and ritual ) celebrated on the full moon in the Hindu calendar.


Still swimming in the divine grace of this love as we celebrated Guru Purnima, dedicated to and honouring of the Guru, the True Teacher, the Sat-Guru, this that is the One-Self – Whilst celebrations were occurring in Papaji’s Satsang Bhavan in Lucknow India, we joined the festivities starting the day here in Australia with outdoor yoga, chanting, prayers, offerings and preparations for our Beloved Sangha family to arrive for the evening festival – clear night sky, magnificent full moon, Puja fire, prayers and offerings, Chai and food, poetry readings from ‘The gift of This’, Papaji Satsang DVD ‘Worship’, chanting and prasad – the presence and fragrance of our recently departed friend was palpable and felt by all in the love, in the flowers, in the devotion.


The name ‘Guru Purnima’ comes from ‘Guru’ referring to ‘the teacher’ and ‘Purnima’ referring to ‘the full moon’. There are many days and types of Puja ( prayer, offerings and ritual ) celebrated on the full moon in the Hindu calendar.


Guru Purnima originated as a nation wide Hindu festival, stemming from honouring the Guru Vyasa (Srila Vyasadeva, who it is said, wrote the 4 Vedas that were recited by the Lord Brahma). Guru Purnima is often referred to as Vyasa Purnima. From that time, a day was dedicated towards the Guru, and traditionally it is the day when the guru is worshiped. 

Today it has become an honouring and celebration dedicated to all Guru’s or teachers, regardless of whether you are a Hindu or not – and an honouring of and dedication to, the Sat-Guru, the true teacher within ones own self.


Guru Purnima is a time of honouring and gratitude, a celebration of my beloved teacher Papaji ( Sri H.W.L Poonja ) and his teacher Sri Ramana Maharshi, who have both been relentless and unwavering silent pointers to the Truth. It is also a beautiful time to share in the celebration and honouring of your own Guru or Teacher, and the Sat-Guru – the true teacher, this that IS YOUR OWN SELF. 



Arunachala, Ramana, Papaji, I am forever at your feet


In gratitude to all teachers – In honour of The Sat-Guru, this that you are

Namaste Yantra-ji

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Jul 182016


When is enough, enough? When is the time, the right time?

You have the opportunity to experience the truth of yourself and the truth of freedom right now, as you – so what is stopping you ?

You have had many glimpses, teachers, experiences, asked many questions, had many desires fulfilled. You have the opportunity of being here and discovering the truth right now – not now and then again later – fully now, right now.

Why waste another moment moving, searching?

Why continue to live your life with the attitude of, yes I have and I’ll get back to that, or a some day one day kind of way, or there is enough time, or I’ll get to it later, tomorrow, the next day or next week, or there’s s plenty of time, or I don’t have time.What if you were to really speak the truth here now – This is the only time you have, this moment right now!

My beloved teacher Papaji says why postpone it?

When you have had even one glimpse of the truth, why throw it away?

You already know the truth of this – this is the ONLY time – here now – the only moment that you have.
If you only had the opportunity to ask one question – What would you ask?

If you could only have one desire fulfilled – what is it that you really want?

Are you prepared to let go, face, feel, here now?

Are you prepared to STOP actually stop, stop everything and discover the truth – the endless fathomless truth that cannot be covered, lost or discarded.

This is the opportunity of Satsang, this is Papaji’s invitation and this is my invitation to you – be still and silent, stop every movement of mind here, now and discover what is already and always has been free – then remain here, where you are, as you are – you are That !!

In peace and love to all – Namaste Yantra-ji

Jul 042016

Honouring Life and Death, and this Silence that holds it All.

As many of you are now aware, our satsang community has been experiencing the shock, loss and heartbreak with the sudden passing of our very dear and beloved friend and long time Sangha member Andrew Storm.
Satsang on this Tuesday evening was an opportunity to allow all that is here and to open more deeply into this Stillness and Silence that holds it all.

Andrew and I had a very beautiful and intimate connection, one that was born from our same love of truth, and of silence. We also shared similar experiences earlier in our lives, of Ramana Maharishi appearing to us through visions. Whilst my pointing to the truth came more directly through Ramana pointing me to Papaji, for Andrew from the moment of that appearance, Ramana became and would always be his true teacher.

 The silence that emanated from Andrew was a testimony to the love and devotion of Self, this that can only be found in the silence of the truth of ones own self.  For those who knew and loved him, Andrew was not one for platitudes, especially not spiritual platitudes. He was a fierce and unwavering beacon for the truth, resting in silent awareness. Ramana and Papaji have been ever present in the pointing and clarity of this Silence that is the true Self.

No matter what is here, no matter what arises, all is welcome here, and in the allowing of it all, all that once appears, disappears, back into this that remains – this Silence that always Is.

On hearing of Andrews passing these words flowed through, i share them here with you:

“Do not mourn my loss,
rather celebrate my transition.
It is only the body that has gone,
this cloak that was the illusion of separateness.

I remain at the feet of Ramana
where I have always been.
Let us continue to meet here as we always have,
in the stillness and silence of the Self.
” ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

From the book  “Talks with Sri Ramana Maharshi” – here are a few words Ramana spoke, from the depth of his experience, on death and dying:

“MOURNING IS NOT the index of true love. It betrays love of the object, of its shape only. That is not love. True love is shown by the certainty that the object of love is in the Self and that it can never become non-existent. There will be no pain if the physical outlook is given up and if the person exists as the Self.

There is no death nor birth. That which is born is only the body. The body is the creation of the ego. But the ego is not ordinarily perceived without the body. It is always identified with the body.

If a man considers he is born he cannot avoid the fear of death. Let him find out if he has been born or if the Self has any birth. He will discover that the Self always exists, that the body which is born resolves itself into thought and that the emergence of thought is the root of all mischief.

Find where from thoughts emerge. Then you will abide in the ever-present inmost Self and be free from the idea of birth or the fear of death.
Recall the state of sleep. Were you aware of anything happening? If the son or the world be real, should they not be present with you in sleep?
You cannot deny your existence in sleep. Nor can you deny you were happy then. You are now the same person speaking and raising doubts. You are not happy according to you. But you were happy in sleep. What has transpired in the meantime that happiness of sleep has broken down? It is the rise of the ego. That is the new arrival in the jagrat (waking) state. There was no ego in sleep.
The birth of the ego is called the birth of the person. There is no other kind of birth. Whatever is born, is bound to die. Kill the ego: there is no fear of recurring death for what is once dead. The Self remains even after the death of the ego. That is Bliss – that is immortality.
Training the mind helps one to bear sorrows and bereavements with courage. But the loss of one’s offspring is said to be the worst of all griefs. Still it is true, pain on such occasions can be assuaged by association with the wise.”

Always meeting in this same One Love, this same One Silent Self
~ Namaste Yantra-ji
Jun 272016


Mid Winter Solstice Satsang
Tue 21st June

Mid winter  – The winter solstice – is traditionally a celebration of the shortest day and longest night – As the darkness and long nights shorten, the days lengthen becoming lighter and warmer, it is a reminder that the darkness of winter will be turning outward towards the light and warmth.

As we are aware on a physical level, the deepest coldest time of winter is a time to be indoors, warm, nurtured, only venturing out when we need to. The nights are cold dark and long, our bedtimes become earlier, the body needs more nurturing and physical warmth, the inner life also can benefit from this time of rest and quiet, preparing for the resurgent energy of the light and warmth of springtime.

There are may rituals and celebrations associated with the winter solstice, they all have a common thread – a  turning of ones attention to the inner light that is still alight in ones heart. This inner light that may have seemed to be dormant is re-connected with and brought consciously outward again into the world.
The Solstice can be used as a time of deep inner reflection and introspection a time to go deeply inward, to reconnect with the light of ones essence, a time of letting go and bring forth the light of renewal.

Everything can be used in service to this that is true – In Satsang we can use this natural impulse of natures rhythm, to consciously turn towards the inner silence and stillness that is inherent as our own self.

Those who joined us in person and via skype, had a beautiful shared, quiet, introspective and reflective evening ~ Namaste Yantra-ji


Jun 202016

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Follow the ‘I’ back to its source – The Silent Self – This alone Is

My beloved teacher Papaji and his teacher Ramana, through Self Inquiry both ask the question, ‘Who am I’?

So let us discover – who is this I ? who is the one who is asking, who is the questioner?

Usually we are distracted by life, by mind, by sensations, by emotions, by circumstances, by tendencies of thought – all of this is the identity, this that is referred to as ‘I’ – I, me, mine, myself, you, yours – is all ‘I’.

True and ruthless Self inquiry starts firstly with knowing what you want – I want to be free – then becoming aware of this ‘I’ that is wanting to be free. This ‘I’, this ‘I’-dentity, this one that wants, needs, this one that pushes, contracts, controls, this one that moves towards, away or against, this one that is identified with survival. Who is this one, who is this ‘I’?

It is useful to bring all of ones cognitive awareness, all of ones attention to this ‘I’ to discover firstly what it is. How can we know the Self if we at first don’t have this ruthless self inquiry of all that we have thought ourselves to be? When we truthfully inquire into who is this ‘I’, we can discover this ‘I’ is not ‘I’ – what is discovered is that it does not even exist at all.

Ramana and Papaji’s suggestion is to bring all attention to this ‘I’ and then to follow the ‘I’ back to its source – what does this mean?

When we are willing to firstly see all that we have associated with the ‘i’, we see what is real and what is false. When we leave the false identity behind, only the ‘I’ itself remains, This discovery then is the doorway, the gate way to the Self.

We can then ask and discover, What or who is this ‘I’?

What is it made of?

Where does it arise?

We discover this ‘I’ that is now not attached to anything, is free – when the truth of the ‘I’ itself is discovered, it too is found to be false, there is no such thing even as ‘I’ – then all becomes just This, this silent stream of life itself,  consciousness itself, This that all is arising and falling back into – the waves on the ocean and the ocean itself .

This that is deeper, un-moving, untouched, is revealed, this silent awareness that holds all, this silent awareness that is it all, this silent awareness that is our own Self.

When you give your attention to the truthful desire for freedom, to the truthful inquiry of who and what is this I, then the depth of silence of your own Self is discovered.

This silence, the Self,  pulls all that is on the surface, all the name, form, identity into itself, into the silence – it is as though it burns everything back into the ash of its own self, becoming nothing, leaving nothing.

My beloved teachers Ramana and Papaji both confirm this, saying – the ‘I’ is destroyed, and This alone Is .

“When you turn toward this supposed entity called “I”

you will find only silent awareness. Take Refuge in that.”

~ Gangaji

Let us come together in this ruthless inquiry, be obliterated in the silence of this one abiding truth – the Silent Self – and discover – This alone Is.
~ Namaste Yantra-ji