Follow the ‘I’ back to its source – The Silent Self – This alone Is
My beloved teacher Papaji and his teacher Ramana, through Self Inquiry both ask the question, ‘Who am I’?
So let us discover – who is this I ? who is the one who is asking, who is the questioner?
Usually we are distracted by life, by mind, by sensations, by emotions, by circumstances, by tendencies of thought – all of this is the identity, this that is referred to as ‘I’ – I, me, mine, myself, you, yours – is all ‘I’.
True and ruthless Self inquiry starts firstly with knowing what you want – I want to be free – then becoming aware of this ‘I’ that is wanting to be free. This ‘I’, this ‘I’-dentity, this one that wants, needs, this one that pushes, contracts, controls, this one that moves towards, away or against, this one that is identified with survival. Who is this one, who is this ‘I’?
It is useful to bring all of ones cognitive awareness, all of ones attention to this ‘I’ to discover firstly what it is. How can we know the Self if we at first don’t have this ruthless self inquiry of all that we have thought ourselves to be? When we truthfully inquire into who is this ‘I’, we can discover this ‘I’ is not ‘I’ – what is discovered is that it does not even exist at all.
Ramana and Papaji’s suggestion is to bring all attention to this ‘I’ and then to follow the ‘I’ back to its source – what does this mean?
When we are willing to firstly see all that we have associated with the ‘i’, we see what is real and what is false. When we leave the false identity behind, only the ‘I’ itself remains, This discovery then is the doorway, the gate way to the Self.
We can then ask and discover, What or who is this ‘I’?
What is it made of?
Where does it arise?
We discover this ‘I’ that is now not attached to anything, is free – when the truth of the ‘I’ itself is discovered, it too is found to be false, there is no such thing even as ‘I’ – then all becomes just This, this silent stream of life itself, consciousness itself, This that all is arising and falling back into – the waves on the ocean and the ocean itself .
This that is deeper, un-moving, untouched, is revealed, this silent awareness that holds all, this silent awareness that is it all, this silent awareness that is our own Self.
When you give your attention to the truthful desire for freedom, to the truthful inquiry of who and what is this I, then the depth of silence of your own Self is discovered.
This silence, the Self, pulls all that is on the surface, all the name, form, identity into itself, into the silence – it is as though it burns everything back into the ash of its own self, becoming nothing, leaving nothing.
My beloved teachers Ramana and Papaji both confirm this, saying – the ‘I’ is destroyed, and This alone Is .
“When you turn toward this supposed entity called “I”
you will find only silent awareness. Take Refuge in that.”
Let us come together in this ruthless inquiry, be obliterated in the silence of this one abiding truth – the Silent Self – and discover – This alone Is.
~ Namaste Yantra-ji