Jul 102017

Meeting ‘need’ and discovering what is deeper

We all have needs starting with the basic human needs that support survival – food, shelter, water, air, warmth.

There are the needs of being a social species, that of connection, closeness and intimacy, enabling the ability to procreate, to stay safe as a group, and survive as a species.

Through our ability to think, feel and sense – these same needs become driven by an idea, belief or story that we are a someone, a somebody, who is in some way lacking, threatened, vulnerable, out of control.

Through our mind, our senses or emotions, we begin trying to find what will fill our lack, what will prevent the threat, what will have us be safe, secure, or loved. These needs – either overt or covert –  to be in relationship, to be seen, to be valued, to be unique, to be wanted, to be respected, to be knowledgeable etc etc disguise our fears that we feel inadequate, unlovable, unsafe.

We may be aware or unaware of the needs that arise. We may be perceived as someone who is needy or lacking in needs. Whichever way it shows up, it is useful to pierce the lie of overt or covert ‘need’ to discover who is the one that needs and is needing, to discover what is this need, to discover what it covers, and to discover what is deeper, and ever deeper still – what is untouched by any perceived need? What has never been touched? What can never be tainted, changed or altered, whether or not any need is ever met or remains unmet?

There is an opportunity in Satsang, or retreat, to fully pierce the lie of the identified self, this one who has ‘need’, and discover, not the one who has no need, but rather this itself that is needless – in ever deepening gratitude for this endless opportunity of fresh discovery – of Self

~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Jun 132017

True Support in times of Crises

Crises is defined as a time of intense difficulty or danger. There is news of world events, some that seem far removed from our lives and some closer to home. When there is so much occurring in our lives and our world we may feel that there is intensity and crises even if we are not being exposed directly to danger. We may experience intense difficulty in personal, relationship, financial or health crises. We may face the uncertainty of physical threat to ourselves or those we love, through violence or abuse, or we may experience the intensity of the crises of death through accident, illness, injury or suicide.

Wherever we look we can find some form of crises, either close to home or further afield, as we are exposed to so much through the media.

What really happens when we hear news of crisis, either in our immediate world or in the wider context of the world around us – and what is true support? .
Firstly we need to distinguish if the crises, the threat of intense difficulty or danger, is real or perceived , is immediate or imagined. If it is real and immediate, then of course immediate action and support is needed, to remove, to protect, and to remain safe is vital – this may require us to obtain physical, mental, financial, emotional support and assistance, to run, to flee or to ask for help.

However, what we often experience as crises, as threat of intense difficulty or danger, is only perceived threat, is only imagined danger, which causes us to react – moving away or against mentally, physically or emotionally, to cope, to deny, to suppress, to control. We are triggered by world events, feeling powerless, fearful, angry, enraged, and yet we talk and act as though nothing is really wrong, burying our heads in the sand or acting out. How do we distinguish and be real with what is actually occurring, what is actually here, what is being triggered in us, and have the availability of true response and true support?

We are afraid or war, afraid of hurt, afraid of violence, afraid of terrorism, afraid of pain, afraid of death. So we either deny and suppress or project and become angry about war, angry about seeing others hurt, angry about violence and terrorism, angry about pain, angry about death. Then we talk, argue, discuss, we project the anger, the hurt, the resentment, the fear, both outwardly and inwardly onto others and ourselves, creating more unrest, more war, a form of inner terrorism, and then wonder why there is no peace, why there is no love, why there is no support.

In the willingness to inquire and distinguish firstly between real or perceived crises, there is then the opportunity to stop, to fully experience what is here, without denying or projecting. There is the opportunity to feel the pain and intensity of it all, without telling a story about it and without moving – feeling and allowing the powerlessness, the hurt, the anger, the violation – and then opening even deeper into what holds it all, into true support, into the peace of our own Self, and the love that holds everything.

Satsang is this opportunity to stop and inquire, to discern what is true, and to affirm what is undeniably present here always – this endless peace, stillness, silence of being, once discovered is found to be true and endless support.

In deepest gratitude for this life that constantly points us home to the truth, to the support that is always here – as each other, as our own self ~ Namaste Yantra-ji 

May 162017

‘Living in Devotion’

What is devotion? What does it mean to you to be devoted, to live in devotion? Devoted to who or to what ? As always at first it is useful to explore what these words mean to us – how do we devote our time, our life and to what?

Are you devoted to ‘your’ life, to your story, to your ideas, to your identity, to being a certain someone? Are you devoted to a cause, to rigidity, to a purpose, to an ideal? Are you devoted to suffering, to living a lie, to playing small?

“Wherever you go, maya has a trap that is waiting for you. If you worship, you can get trapped in the rituals of worship. If you follow the path of yoga, then yogic samadhi will be a trap for you. Do you understand?” ~ Papaji

Are you devoted to the idea of truth, to the idea of enlightenment , to the idea of freedom? Are you devoted to service, or surrender, or ritual?

My beloved teacher Papaji says Devotion’ really means ‘not divided’. The Sanskrit word bhakti actually means ‘where there is no division’ “- Papaji was a bhakti, his whole life was lived in devotion, to the living discovery of God, to Krishna, to Ramana, to truth, to consciousness itself – What is your life really devoted to? Are you willing to surrender fully? Who is the one living in devotion?

Eventually through the direct realisation of your own Self and the commitment to remain true to this discovery, these questions no longer arise or need to be answered.
When you are devoted to the living Truth of your own Self, to This that is All – there is just devotion living as itself.

“Supreme devotion is not to give rise to a single thought. Then you are not carried away” ~ Papaji

Remain here as you are, free, conscious, living in devotion itself.

We recently held a one day Satsang retreat ‘Living In Devotion’. It was a beautiful opportunity to explore and immerse more deeply, to have confirmed this undeniable truth of our own self, that who we are, this that life itself is, is living devotion itself.  No matter what is occurring, there is the possibility to be fully present, here as your own self, fully immersed in this that is love itself, living, being lived, in devotion. What ultimately is discovered, the words Living ‘in’ Devotion, become Living Devotion, then just Devotion – Devotion Living itself. Such a gift of this fresh discovery of yourself, living in and as devotion itself ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Apr 242017

Love As Everything

Here as we are there is only this,  whether we call it openness, nothing, space or peace, it is also all love – there is nothing that is not all, the entirety of consciousness itself – there is nothing then that is not love.

When we use the body, the emotions, or the mind to discern love, we think of love as an idea, a set of terms, or needs, a group of emotions, or sensations, and we miss the essential all abiding quality that is always here as love itself – full, free, endless and un-name-able. 

When we are willing to be still, to not move, to be as we are with no idea of what is here, to just ‘Stop’ as my beloved teacher Papaji has said – you discover your self as this that is all, this that is everything, this that is consciousness, this that is love itself, the essence that is undeniably here, the ground of being, the substratum of existence – you discover your self and Love as everything.

We offered a one day satsang retreat to explore and immerse more deeply, to have confirmed this undeniable truth of own own self that who we are, this that life itself is, is love – Love as everything.

No matter what is occurring, there is the possibility to be fully present, here as your own self, fully immersed in this that is love itself, living, being lived, as Love. l encourage you to give yourself the gift of this fresh discovery, of yourself, in love as everything ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Feb 272017

The swinging pendulum of polarity strategies or Staying Still

I recently heard the comment that it is often hard to see the play of ego – my reply is that is not actually the case. That sentence, those words, are just the minds way again and again of keeping you locked in survival mode, so that ‘you’ survive. We may not see the play of ego or the survival drive in the way we might expect, or imagine we should or ought to, however we are certain to experience a glitch in our body or emotions that says ‘something is off, something is not quite true’ – So you actually know the truth, that there is always a clue pointing you back to be still, to be this endless self that is always untouched by any need or requirement of the body, the desires, or the survival of this life form.

Let is take some time to examine what this survival drive really is.
As a living form we are governed by an instinctual genetic programming impulse to survive. The genetic imprint is very strong. Like that of all species it is coded into our DNA and cells. It responds to any threat and garners everything at its disposal to guarantee the survival of the form, or of the species.

As a human being we are no different to any other form in regard to this genetic survival imprint. We do have however an added layer of genetic programing – as well as the sensory, or animal instinct, there is also the emotional and mental responses. As the survival of our species originally depended on these responses, you can see that they were actually extremely valuable. However when we are willing to examine both what is driving our conditioned behaviours, and explore what is untouched by them – we are confronted by another response – the swinging polarity strategies A dear friend and colleague of mine Kevin Billet terms these polarity survival strategies the double bind ( dammed if you do, and dammed if you don’t ). The emotional and thinking overlay, creates a polarity strategy so that we avoid the perceived threat or danger zone.

What is termed the ego or identity has many strategies for survival, so it is useful for the purpose of self inquiry to take a look at this response and how it ‘seems’ to keep us trapped in an endless swinging pendulum between two poles, two extremes – all driven by the original threat and fear of non survival.

I will share some examples of how these polarity drives show up. We may be faced with many difficult encounters or experiences in life, which are perceived as a threat in some way – we then react in ways in order to protect  – we either move away ( in fear or shame )  we move towards ( in order to be lovable, nice, harmless ) or we move against ( in order to be tough, strong, the fittest, in control ).

So let us say that for an example that we experience fear, humiliation, or shame, this is an act of moving away and actually a cover for what is more deeply feared. This fear or shame has us be in a defensive retreating mode, abdicating any sense of rights, power, or control so that we wont be seen as a threat, or we wont be abandoned, or left to die. This movement away becomes so intolerable as we realise that we are not actually safe as someone who is vulnerable and weak and so there is a swing to an opposite polarity strategy – that of either towards or against, the towards strategy is one of being nice, placating, pleasing, doing – the against strategy is one of being strong, in control, dominating, righteous, judgemental, blaming, threatening. This swinging back and forth is an endless cycle.  At one moment seeming to avoid the threat, and then seeming to be the cause of threat, and so you move again.

Let us take a look first at what is beneath it all. Beneath all the movement is emotion – if we use the example again of the shame, fear , withdrawing, retreat, abdicating, supplicating oneself, or showing up as weak –  it is a deeper fear that who we are will not survive the threat.
The same is true for the other polarity that unless we are showing up as strong, controlling fierce etc. then we could risk being attached or killed, then suddenly we fear being strong will have us attract the very threat and we move again, being nice ( towards ) or ( away ) being weak and in fear.
ALL of these movements are a form of protection based in instinctual survival mechanisms – however there is no real threat, no real danger , we are not at risk of physical death.

This endless movement is tiring, this endless movement is futile, this endless movement is continual suffering.
If we are willing to see this movement, and that it is futile, we get to open to a new possibility – one that is not based in survival response.
What if you were not to move from one, or to the other ? What if you were to stay still ?
If you didn’t move what would you have to meet? Feel? Experience?
You most likely will experience some form of risk – a risk, a razors edge, something that feels uncertain, unfamiliar, unknown, again the word risky to not move arises – this fear of the Risk is what has you habitually moving from one polarity to the other.
What if you were to discover what this risk really is ? What is it made of, what is it really? What is actually at risk?
You may discover that what is at risk is the dying of the identity, the holding on to being a someone who is a someone – sound familiar?
If we are really willing to stop and meet this risk itself ( not the story of what has us move ) but this that is risk itself , we discover our deepest fear is of total exposure, excruciating vulnerability, we fear that who we are will not exist. And then when you continue to open and allow this – what is discovered? Without all the frantic movement you can now allow the quiet, the space, to permeate all and you discover that risk is imagined, risk is mind, all that is here is endless self with no-one, no somebody, no agenda – just freedom.

Whilst this examination may have taken some time to write and some time to read – the penetrating inquiry itself can take just a moment – all that is required is that you are willing to be still – as my beloved teacher Papaji says, to stop, stop the movement of mind and discover your own self, already always free ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Feb 202017

Valentines Day an opportunity and entry point into inquiry – What really is this ‘Crazy little thing called ‘LOVE”?


This week Satsang occurs on Feb 14th, a day traditionally celebrated as Valentines Day – a day of romantic love. Whilst yes it is beautiful to celebrate with our beloveds, there are however so many ideals and ideas about love, how and when it should be celebrated, what it is and is not – all of which leave us disillusioned and seeking. Seeking for true love, romantic love, wild love, passionate love, crazily in love, real love, all in the hope that this so called true love will give us a sense of self, a sense of security, a sense of purpose, a sense of belonging, a sense of identity. When people are having an issue with love, I often hear the line from Queen’s song – ‘…a crazy little thing called love….’

Let us use Valentines day as an opportunity, as an entry point into inquiry – what really is this Crazy little thing called ‘LOVE’?
What really is LOVE? There is never any right answer to this question only truthful and direct self inquiry. Do you really want to stay in the endless cycle of looking for, needing and wanting love? Or do you want to be free? – There comes a point where the idea of love is no longer fulfilling – the opportunity then is to turn your full attention to what is already fulfilled – this love that is always here undisturbed as your own self.

Any idea or concept about love is just that, an idea or a concept. Romantic love is an idea of how we might want love to look, feel, or be as an experience. The same goes for ‘true love’ or ‘real love’ or any other term you may want to use – you will find that underneath these words ‘true’ and ‘real’ – there is still a hope, a longing, an idea about love, looking seeking for the real deal, the one, a knowing how it should or should not look and feel or show up.
The word love is used in so many different ways, to refer to different situation, circumstance, experiences, events and feelings.
Most people have a desire, a need, or a want, to be loved. A feeling they are able to be loved or loving or not based on the early experiences of care. When we are young the sense of being cared for, nurtured, embraced, touched, fed, feeling safe, belonging – we tend to call love. We feel we were loved or are lovable based on the caring we received, or not loved or unlovable, if we perceived it was missing in these forms as a baby and child. As we grow and become an adult this sense of care ( being called love ) is projected outward onto another, to give this love to us, creating again the feeling of belonging, feeling safe, secure protected, nurtured and being cared for, or the opposite as rejection, unsafe, and abandonment.
Many others assume that Love is a feeling or a sensation, in the heart or body, a sensation of warmth, openness, and care for self or other, or this that is received from another. Often love is confused with lust, sensuality or sexuality. Some people have given up on the idea of love totally, replacing wanting Love with the feeling of care, like or respect. The commonality here is that Love is regarded as a thought, feeling or sensation and as coming from the outside.
It is important to speak the truth to yourself. To first discover all that this word is for you, all the thoughts, feelings and sensations that you associate with it. Then for the purpose of inquiry, just for a moment, leave all that you have associated with the word love. Notice how when you experience love as a sensation or feeling that it comes and goes, allow it to come and go without trying to keep it or reject it. Then you can penetrate more deeply into what is untouched by this movement of the thoughts, feelings, sensations.
So, how do you feel about love? Is love something that is crazy, something that you can’t handle? Is love this thing that seems just out of reach? Does love have you feel out if control, or makes you want to control others? Is love illusive, overbearing, or non-existent?
What is it that you are defining love as – a thought, an emotion, a sensation, an action, behaviour, a set of circumstances?
Where do you look for love? Do you look to the mind to your thoughts and fantasies, dreams and desires?
Is love a mental activity, swinging from one thought to the next, needing, wanting, pleasing, pleading, doing, yearning, longing, planning, imagining? When we stay still, if we just stay here, we discover there is no future, there is no past, there is no suffering with mental activity – then where is love? Rather than love being crazy, you discover what is ‘crazy’ is defining love through the activity of mind and thoughts.
Where do you look for love? Do you look to the emotions, to the feelings, to your emotive responses that stem from your fantasies, hopes, dreams and desires? The emotions, where do they arise? Notice how emotions are always arising and falling, changing in intensity and quality, changing name and form. Is love this roller coaster of crazy emotions, elation, deflation, happiness, misery, satisfaction, dissatisfaction, ecstasy, and devastation?
Are all of these fluctuating emotions that are arising in the mind and body really love? What if you were to stay still and not grasp any emotion, any feeling no matter how painful or pleasurable – what is discovered – what then and where is love? Rather than love being crazy, you discover what is ‘crazy’ is defining love through the highs and lows of emotional response.
Where do you look for love? Do you look to the sensations in the body, to the arousal filtered through your thoughts and fantasies, dreams and desires? Are the physical sensations of attraction, repulsion, pleasure, arousal, really love?
Is love really the physical sensations of pleasure and pain, of arousal, attraction, repulsion, this that makes you sweat and shake and want to get on your bike to run towards or away from love? is this really love – or is it sensuality, sexuality, attraction, desire, lust, need? Rather than love being crazy, you discover what is ‘crazy’ is defining love through the bodily sensations and physical responses.
Where else do you look for love – in circumstances, events, relationships? Where in your life are you feeling like you cant handle love? What is it about love that there is to handle?  Where are you wishing that you could just get around to love or or wish the other person would get around to it? Rather than love being crazy, you discover what is ‘crazy’ is defining love through circumstances or events, through any relationships or lack of them.
Where else do you look for love – When we entertain our thoughts, the mental activity, we swing between the polarities of thought, future and past, pleasure and pain – this is all mind – none of it is love. Love cannot be found in the past – where is the past, the past is gone, the past doesn’t exist – try to find it – where do you have to look for the past? What do you discover?  The past is only ever in your mind. So love cannot be found by looking to the past no matter how delightful memories may be.
What about the future, where do we need to look to find it, where can it be found? it also doesn’t exist, so all of the mental projections, the longings, the fantasies, are all in the mind, they too don’t exist other than in the mind. So love cannot be found in the past or the future – what about the present, where is it, can you find it? – even the present is illusive moving from the future to past in an instant. Rather than love being crazy, you discover what is ‘crazy’ is defining love through the past or future or through hoping in the present, which instantly becomes past and future again.
What about any of this, has anything to do with this crazy little word called ‘love’?
If love has been based on all of our false ideas and concepts, how then do we reconcile this with the spiritual sayings, ‘who we are is love’, ‘love is all there is’, ‘the truth is love’? When the word Love is truthfully investigated and seen for what it is, then real inquiry can take place.
For the purpose of inquiry, just for a moment, leave all that you have associated with the word love. Notice how when you experience love as a sensation or feeling that it comes and goes, allow it to come and go without trying to keep it or reject it. Then you can penetrate more deeply into what is untouched by this movement of the thoughts, feelings, sensations.
So what is it now that you are defining love as?
If you could no longer look to the mind or thoughts, if you could no longer to the feelings or emotions, if you could no longer look to any of the physical sensations or cues of the body, if you could no longer look to outward circumstances, events or relationships to define love – If you could no longer define love – then what remains – what is really here always, available, free, here, now
Notice what remains?
Can you even name this?
You may find that the mind wants to name this and so names and sensations arise, feelings of love, bliss, space etc, notice that these sensations too will fall back into this that you are.
Again Notice what remains?
Can you even name this?
What then is your true experience of love?
When you surrender everything you thought was love, just surrender and open innocently to this that is here now, unknown – what is discovered?
This that you are needs no definition, this that you are requires nothing in name or form, this that you are is love itself, this that you are is the beloved, it cannot be named or owned, or given or it is you – this that you have been searching for, recoiling from, desiring, pleading with life for – this with no defining is discovered to be love, this that is free, boundary-less, wordless, emotionless, body-less, sensation-less, thought-free, this is love.
Love is the surrendered grace that is everything in every moment. – what a relief !!  Now how will your life look without all that previous need to define and seek love – wow – what an adventure you are in for with the divine realisation of your own self – hold onto your hats because this crazy little thing called love is you !!!!
In Satsang there is the opportunity to have your Self revealed to your self , to discover this that you are is Love here and now, regardless of what is showing up as this physical experience. Satsang points to the truth, that there is the possibility to know yourself here and now, as you are, with all of the experiences of the arising of form, of body, of mind, of emotions, of appearances, of circumstance, without needing to fix, change, or alter anything, to be at peace, to be free, here and now – as love itself. Satsang gives the opportunity to inquire deeply into what is, past the illusion of thought, feelings and sensations … discover the self as you are … this that love is, without the need for anything to be added or subtracted … then love is free, fresh and unimagined.
~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Feb 062017

Fuoco 4 – Version 2

A Life on Fire – with Yantra-ji

A life on Fire’, a one day Satsang retreat was offered at the end of Jan 2017 What does this mean ‘A Life on fire’?

Not me and my personal life, rather this that is life itself, alight with the blaze of its own grace.

What is this ‘life that is living you’?

As you allow the fire of grace to burn through all that is not real – you discover yourself in and as a blaze of truth. How is this life then to be lived?

What is the call of this inner fire?

Discover what is here always in this blazing fire of truth – your own self, ignited as the fire of life itself. Join us for a deeply revealing inquiry and discover this endless fire of grace and love, that is and has always been your own self.

Following is an edited excerpt from two chapters in the Satsang book ‘Profound Awakening – Meeting Papaji Now – Vol 1 – Yantra-ji’, this book will be available for purchase mid year 2017.

The Fire of Surrender

Let your will burn in this fire so that it takes you nowhere else. Let your self be burned in this fire of eternity, love and peace. Don’t be afraid of this fire, it is love itself. This desire for freedom is the fire of love! ~ Papaji

” …Through the intensity of what I was now faced with, I was being offered an opportunity by life, to surrender everything. This fire could not be ignored, I had to meet and feel the intensity of it all, the anger, the rage, the sadness, the grief. Every thought, belief, desire, hope and concept about my marriage, my self, my life, was being burnt to dust. It was a fire so hot burning inside me, burning everything, as though Kali and Durga themselves (the powerful fiery protective forces of the Hindu goddesses) had been summoned, consuming everything that was a lie in my life – there was not an option to do anything else …. how that would look and where it would end I did not know.”

“…… Then something unexpected happened, as it does in life, or rather a series of unexpected events. ……”

“….. Understandably I was upset, I was angry, and I was devastated. All I could do was to surrender and meet all that arose, all of the upset, the anger, the devastation and the mistrust. In the willingness to experience it fully there was a realness, a rawness, and a sense of peace, that all was occurring as it should be. No matter what was arising there was a sense that it was all arising from and falling back into this deeper embrace of peace. In surrendering everything to this fire of Papaji’s love, I was experiencing all of life being held in this embrace…..”

“…. In Rishikesh, it felt as though my mind had been silenced, as though my mind had been left behind somehow. There was just a profound quiet and deep trust of this unfolding, whatever that was and however that looked.” …… “It was such a hugely deepening and opening experience, not something that can tangibly be expressed in words.

What does deepening mean? What does opening mean? The best description that I can really give is to say that the mind is silenced, the mind is left behind, thought is non-existent, while daily action and activity could just occur naturally, and spontaneously – whether eating, drinking, walking, yoga, meditation, seeing, speaking, or in silence. All of it occurred and was occurring, in this blaze of stillness, in this huge embrace that had been created both by Janaki and this sacred pilgrimage through India and through Mother India herself, through the blessing of grace itself…..”


Just be quiet. This quiet does not involve talking or not talking. It does not involve any doing whatsoever. Just let the mind fall into silence. This is enough. ~ Papaji

“…One of the days in Rishikesh was set aside as a time of preparation, with meditation, chanting and silence on the banks of the river, on a beautiful beach….” “…. Prayers were offered to the holy Mother, to the Ganga, Ganga Ma, regarding that which we wanted to let go of, that which we wanted to offer up, to surrender up to God, to grace, to life, to cleansing, to healing, to truth, to freedom.

This prayer to freedom itself, that was burning inside of me, that was living me, that had brought me to India, was offered up. My whole life was being offered, all of it, everything in service to truth, in service to this that I am, this unspeakable presence. It is amazing how many words we use to try and describe this that is so silent, huge, profound, vast and unspeakable.”

“…..Stepping into that holy river was as though it was a burning all-consuming fire, obliterating, everything, consuming the identity, the name, the form, the mind, and everything known. Cleansed in deep prayer, in the clear crystal waters of the Ganga, this bathing was like being cleansed in a burning fire of icy cold purity, with mother Ganga taking everything offered to her.

And ‘who’ stepped out? Yes that is it – WHO? – just This, not a someone, just This, clean, clear, presence.

“Firstly there must be a desire for God, a love for God or a desire for liberation, without that nothing is possible.

Secondly, this desire for God or realisation is like an inner flame, one must kindle it and fan it, until it becomes a raging fire which consumes all of one’s other desires and interests.

Thirdly, if this inner fire rages for long enough, with sufficient intensity, it will finally consume even that one central overwhelming desire for God or the self.”
~ Papaji

The fire of freedom is just that, it is a fire that burns and consumes everything into itself, as itself. It leaves nothing, no stone unturned, no semblance of any past, present, future, just clarity, pristine awareness, the naked truth, naked to Itself. This is how ‘I’ emerged from the river Ganga – naked to myself, to life, to this unspeakable, fathomless, presence…..”

May the fire of your own self obliterate all that is not you, leaving this clean, clear, pristine, unmistakable grace, that is your own self ~ all love ~ Namaste Yantra-ji


Dec 052016



‘In the Heart of Love’ – Every day we are faced with so much. Often the natural inherent beauty and love seems to be overshadowed by trivial and mundane daily trials, or family, community, or world crisis. Our hearts are often burdened with the weight of what is occurring in the outer circumstances. As human beings we react and try to protect ourselves from this seeming onslaught, by being in denial, avoiding, or retaliating, all the while perpetuating the very suffering we are trying to avoid.

In our need to avoid what we are faced with, we ultimately avoid what is so precious, true, at peace and always present. At this time of the year at the lead up to Christmas, there is so much frantic rush and business. The essence of the peace and beauty, the truth of this time of the year, is often overlooked. Rather than a time to celebrate the light that is each one of us, Christmas time often turns into a spending, eating, disconnected event, one that is not of the heart and not of love, instead full of obligation, conflict, and upset.

‘In the heart of love’ could be the words we use that symbolize the truth of Christmas time. Whether you are a practicing Christian or not, the end of the year offers a time to honour and reflect on the Christ light that is found within each of us. The symbolism of the ‘Christ child’, is the light of consciousness being birthed into physical form, which can be seen reflected in the eyes of all children, and if we are willing to look deeply, truthfully, into another we see the same light is shining as our own consciousness, as the one self.

What is here in the heart of love when we are willing to stop? to be still? to be silent? What is discovered when we stop engaging with the thoughts about our life, or our circumstances? What is discovered in the willingness to stop in mid fight or flight, to stop all internal conflict, all avoidance, all pseudo protection? No matter the intensity of what is going on, no matter the upset, no matter who or what is at fault, no matter how painful, or distressing, we actually always have the choice to stop and be still – what is really here when you are willing to meet fully what is here?

When we are willing to stop, to be still, to be silent, we discover our heart has the capacity to bear it all, we discover a love that is so vast that it encompasses all, we discover what has always been here in the heart of love – We discover in our own heart – all hearts, we discover the truth of love – is all love. No matter what is occurring, there is the possibility to be fully present, here as your own self, fully immersed in the heart of love. l encourage you to give yourself the gift of this fresh discovery, deepening in the heart of love – Namaste Yantra-ji

Nov 142016

Who is this ‘someone’ that is showing up?



What a privilege it is to share with beloveds in Satsang and the fresh discovery of what is true. Last week we had a very strong inquiry through the questions : Who is this ‘someone’ who is showing up? Who is this ‘someone’ who has a life, who is this ‘someone’ who comes to Satsang? Where are you still identified a ‘someone’, as a ‘somebody?

While we may be aware though numerous Satsang inquiries, or though the personal spiritual search, that the ‘someone’, the ‘somebody’, is just a thought arising, we have the opportunity to really investigate the truth of this, not as an idea or as a concept. Through fully investigating who and what is arising, something new fresh is discovered, revealed to be true.

Investigate for yourself now – Who and where this someone, this identity, this one who has a life, is showing up. Notice first what is here – the body, sensations, emotions, breath. Notice all the ways that you identify, all the naming, all the roles, for this that you identify as. As a man, woman, adult, child, sister, brother, lover, friend, wife, husband, partner, daughter, parent, mother, father, sibling, colleague, worker, boss, employer, the good one, the bad one, nice one, kind one etc etc – there are so many ways we name and keep an identity, an idea of ‘our-self’ in place.

Start by bringing your attention to just one of these ways you identify, one of these namings, one of these roles. Notice as you bring you attention to this, how your body feels, any sensations, any tightening, clenching, notice your emotions, any response internally, physically, emotionally, mentally, without telling yourself any story about this naming / role. Notice how and where this someone is showing up, in your body, in your stance, in your energy, in your actions, in your arrogance, in your projections, in your mind, thoughts, concepts.

Now notice what is really here if you could no longer know yourself as that, no longer be know as that, no possibility of that even existing. What do you notice? What is the truth? What is really discovered? Without any possibility of naming of this role – maybe you discover a sense of contraction or strong emotion, fear, anger, shame, terror – allow that, stay open, what is here as you allow this?

What other roles or naming do you have that is keeping this identified self in place, this that you think of as you, this that you think is you?

Again ask – what is really here if you couldn’t know yourself as that, or be known as that, no possibility of that existing at all, not anywhere in consciousness. What is really here? What do you notice? What is the truth? What is really discovered? – Maybe you notice there are no edges, no boundaries, no definition, nothing solid – Often the instinct arises to protect, to contact, to re- identify. As though we were made of clay, we pat ourselves back into shape, back into the defined, back into the safe secure edges of what is familiar, into the known.

Sometimes it is the core of the identity that arises and is revealed, this that is keeping the whole identifying and ego structure in place. Ask again – If the fearful one, rejected one, shamed one, betrayed one, abandoned one, unsafe one, alone one (…  etc etc ) had no possibility of existing, if you couldn’t be that one, couldn’t know yourself as that one, couldn’t be known as that one – what is really here? What is discovered, what is the truth that underlies, that remains, that is always here, before, during and after these roles, these names, this identifying? If the unmet core fear is under the naming, identifying, go deeper, who you are remains untouched, open wider, go deeper still.

Notice the effort, the contraction in keeping the role, the naming in place. Notice the effortlessness of yourself when you have no possibility of entertaining the existence of that naming. When we remain open rather than contracting, we discover there is ‘no one’ to protect  – we remain as openness itself, as spaciousness itself, as Freedom!!

Remain as this that you are. If naming or identity arises, there is no need to contact, to cling, or to follow. Remain soft, breathing, open – remain as you are, wide open, unknown, boundaryless – Free!

In deepest gratitude for the truth of this One-Self ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Nov 072016

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In the face of it all – saying ‘Yes’ to what is.

Often we are faced with situations, circumstances or events where we feel powerless to act, to do something or to make positive change. It may be a physical illness or injury, loss of a relationship or death, it may be unwanted recurring thoughts, or some type of emotional turmoil or other adversity, it may even be a subtle niggle that you cant quite put your finger on. Any situation can have us feel powerless, enraged, fearful or heartbroken. Often we don’t even realise that we are not wanting to feel what is really here, rather we want whatever is occurring to stop so we can go back to our comfortable lives, or to create a comfortable life.

How can we be still and true in the face of any unwanted or unwarranted circumstance, in the face of the worlds adversity, in the face of injustice, in the face of seemingly random events out of our control? First we must be willing to be present to all that is here in the moment, still, silent, un-moving.

Notice whether you are resisting what is here, even subtly are you saying ‘no’ to what is here? When we are willing to be here, to say yes – what is discovered ? Maybe there is a flood of strong emotion, anger, sadness, powerlessness, heart break? Once again notice, are you resting what is here? What would it be like to soften, to just say yes , yes to what is showing up in the moment, without judging it as right or wrong. It is our mind which interprets all that is coming in through the senses, all the thoughts we have about right and wrong, all of our conditioned responses. Without trying to change anything just for a moment allow all that is here. Allow the emotion to be here, without story , what is discovered deeper still.

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the
world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact your heart is made to break;
its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold
ever-more wonders.” – Andrew Harvey

In the allowing, a greater opening is reveled, this that is free of concepts, free of time, free of anything, here is real peace, here is love and equanimity, stillness, silence, beauty. There is the possibility to remain here as this un-moving silent awareness that allows all – then true action can take place , not from a reaction, or mental judgement, not from a need to suppress or avoid – just true action, unknown, fresh, in the moment, free, spontaneous – here there is the possibility to bring this that you are to all.

Join us for an evening of Satsang, discover what is here when we allow everything, when we say yest to what is, discover this that is the freedom of your own self. ~ Namaste Yantra-ji