Jul 272015

What is silence?
When we look up the definition of ‘silence’, we discover that Silence is said to be the lack of audible sound. Silence can refer to any absence of communication or hearing, in speech, music and media. Silence can also be used as a form of non verbal communication and spiritual connection.

Silence in spirituality is often an indicator of inner stillness. A silent mind, freed from the onslaught of thoughts and thought patterns, is often thought to be both a goal and an important step in spiritual development. This inner silence is not about the absence of sound, rather it is understood to bring one in contact with the divine, the ultimate reality, or one’s own true self, one’s divine nature.

Many religious traditions state the importance of being quiet, still in mind and spirit for spiritual growth to occur. In Christianity, there is the silence of contemplative prayer. In Islam, there are the Sufi teachings that suggest the importance of finding silence within. In Buddhism, descriptions of silence and allowing the mind to become silent are implied as a feature of spiritual enlightenment. In Hinduism, Advaita Vedanta and the many paths of Yoga, teachers insist on the importance of silence, known as Mauna – a source of peace and silence for inner growth. In some traditions communal silence is used as a form of worship. Silence often is thought to create the opening for the divine to speak in the heart and mind. Eckhart Tolle says that silence can be seen either as the absence of noise, or as the space in which sound exists, just as inner stillness can be seen as the absence of thought, or the space in which thoughts are perceived. Gangaji and Eli suggest having a silent mind and an open heart.
In the context of Satsang, in the investigation of the truth of the one self, let us discover this silence.
What is silence? Where is silence? How does one experience or cultivate silence?
My teacher Papaji says not to stir a single thought – then what is discovered, if you do not stir, give rise to, or follow a single thought?
Firstly let us be clear about what we mean by mind or thought – A thought can be identified as being a mental, physical or emotional response, it may present as a word, a series of words, as a thought stream, it may arise as images, pictures, colour or sound, as a physical sensation or any other phenomena.

When there is no attention given to the arising of any thought
we discover what is here, what remains, and what has always been here. Profound, vast, still, empty, full, silence – this is the ground of our being , this is awareness itself, this is the consciousness that is all – all arising and falling back into silence.
Then there is the possibility to discover the endless depth of this silence that is our own self.

In gratitude always for This One Self – Namaste Yantra-ji

Jul 202015

sunflower-with-lfreak-logo (1)

Innocence or Arrogance

How is it that you approach life – with innocence or with arrogance?
I’m sure that most of you would want to answer this question with the former, so let us explore this as an entry point for self inquiry.

As a survival strategy it has been useful for us as a species to ‘know’ or have ‘knowledge’ of certain things – about others,  about situations and circumstances, about life. It is useful to know if another ( either animal or human ) is a danger, will eat or attack us. It is useful to know that water is swift flowing or calm and safe to cross a river, it is useful to know that fire is hot, can burn and cook. It is useful to know how to keep the body warm and dry, housed and fed. All of these acts of knowing, whether through the intellect, through feeling or through physical sensing, are designed to keep the body alive – in order that this species will reproduce and will survive.
We feel that we need to know so much – In the context of survival, there may be many things that are useful to know.

However, we have ascertained now, that we are alive, safe and surviving – so nothing else then needs to be known, understood or assumed – In the context of knowing the self deeper than these survival drives, of being free, in really meeting with another, this that is known with the mind, knowledge itself, is both a hindrance and unnecessary – the knowing mind is actually arrogant – so let us explore the truth of this.

As you meet with someone, your partner, lover, boss, colleague, friend, family member – do you meet them freely, freshly, in the moment, innocently, not knowing anything about them? Or do you bring all of your judgements of the past, all that you know about them into this moment, into this meeting?

What about life, a situation, circumstance or event – do you bring all of the past into this encounter, into this moment?

When you meet someone who you have not met previously – do you try to ‘know’ them by making assumptions or judgements about who they are, what they look like, how the speak, how they act, who they may be like?

What do you discover when you have thoughts about someone, how they are, who they are, how they will be, ought to be, should or shouldn’t be, or when you have thoughts about a situation, circumstance or event? Do you jump to some conclusion about what something means, or what outcome may arise, based on thoughts from the past? Do you really know the other? How can you when you are not them, not inside them, not inside their world of thoughts, feelings or sensation. Do you have some privileged insight  that has you know more about another than they do themselves ? What are these judgements and assumptions actually based on? – All of these thoughts are of the past, projected onto an imagined future – stemming from the perceived need to be safe, secure, and loved, to be right, to be in control, to dominate, to belong, needing to have a sense of power, of ownership, -  of knowing.

All of these acts of knowing, are a carry over of the survival drive – to make sure the body is secure, safe, loved, fed, that it belongs, is reproducing, and surviving!

Do any of these thoughts, judgements and assumptions, arise from innocence? Actually – No – the knowing, judging, assuming mind, is the epitome of arrogance.

Let us discover what is here, what is available, when we allow innocence rather than arrogance – What is required ? Nothing – just innocently be open now, here, with whatever is here, with who ever is here?

Allow yourself to be here, to meet whatever is here, who ever is here, in this that is unknown, freshly in the moment, freely and innocently in this meeting.
What do you experience when you open here, as though you have never met, when nothing is known, nothing is assumed?

So much was covered, hidden, by all of the baggage of the past, all of the burden actually of knowing, of needing to know. You may discover there is so much more available, more space, more presence, love, joy, endless possibilities, innocence itself.

What a precious treasure to discover that there is space to meet anyone and anything. What a blessing to know yourself as this space, as this opening, as this possibility, as innocence itself. This that you are, that is always here, always free, does not need you to know anything. It cannot itself be known by the mind, as it is not a thing that can be defined. To let life live you as an endless expression of itself, freely, freshly, open in the unknown – this is innocence itself.

I recently viewed a YouTube clip titled “Remove Labels this Ramadan” - 6 Strangers sit in the dark, when the lights come on they are flabbergasted – it is about the assumptions that are made when we can’t see who we are speaking with, the assumptions we make when we can see – and how that determines our relating – whilst it is part of an advertising campaign for a popular soda drink, I encourage you to view it, as it is relevant to this inquiry – Innocence or Arrogance. Please click here to watch

In gratitude always for This One Self – Namaste Yantra-ji

Jul 132015

Version 2

Tenderness, vulnerability and exposure

Such a beautiful evening of Satsang inquiry, so deeply profound to see what it is that has us close, protect, push away, repel – and what is discovered, when we remain open, aware, just here, naked to ourselves, tender, vulnerable and exposed.
A dear friend of mine who offers the most divine work with women and couples, recently shared that she had become aware of a tiny hidden part of her that was holding back love, just in case.

Where is it that we are holding back, protecting, closing, keeping out, pushing away?
Let us start by exploring where this closure or protection occurs, where it arises.

Bringing awareness to the body, to the physical form, to the sensations in the body we can become aware of any physical sense of holding, of tightness, of pushing, of closing, of keeping out, of protecting. Without trying to change this just notice – where is it? where does it arise? what triggers it to arise? Is this a familiar pattern or habit? Just allow whatever is here showing up in the body. There is no need to change anything that is occurring with the physical, just notice and be here with whatever is here.

Then bringing the awareness to the emotional body, notice the emotional sensations, the feelings, that occur in this pushing, closing, holding back. What are the feelings that arise? Notice the feelings that are used to push, to repel, to protect? Notice the feelings, the emotions themselves that are not allowed to be felt, that are pushed aside and repelled. Become aware of any habits or patterns with the emotional responses. Without trying to change them, just notice and allow whatever is here.

Bringing awareness now to the mental body, to the thoughts, ideas, concepts, beliefs. How do the thoughts push, keep out, repel, protect? Notice any sense of arrogance, of importance, of knowing, of being right, justified, better than, less than, superior, or inferior, and how the mental realm is operating – is this familiar to you? Without needing to change anything with the thoughts just notice them, allow and be here.

We all have these 3 bodies, physical, mental, emotional – this is how we perceive, experience and express through this form. There is nothing wrong with any physical sensation, emotional sensation or mental sensation, they all just arise and fall of their own accord. It is said by Dr Jill Bolte Taylor a Neuroscientist, that any emotion, sensation or thought, if let alone will pass in 90 seconds. That being the case, it is then up to us whether we choose to follow it , prolong it, tell a story about it, live in suffering of it.

What if just here, just now, we were to be tender with ourselves, tender with the body, mind, emotions. What if we were to allow an embrace of what is here arising and falling. What if instead of protecting and contracting, we remain open, tender, vulnerable, exposed – right here right now – what is discovered? – When there is no need to protect what is discovered? What is discovered when we remain open even as the need to protect arises ( i am not speaking of ignoring physical, mental or emotional harm – rather the perceived, imagined threat, that habitually causes closure ).

When we allow all to be here, rising and falling as it is, then we can discover what is untouched, undisturbed by this rising and falling. In this discovery we find that nothing needs to change. We do not need to fix who we are, we do not need to fix the body, mind or emotions. These can and will, arise and fall and we remain aware of ourself, untouched, undisturbed by any of it. Such a beautiful fresh discovery in the moment, that we are here already, here as we are. We cannot go anywhere – it is only the attention that can move and wander. Such freedom, beauty, love, joy, in being here naked to ourselves – in Gangaji’s words – “open, unprotected and free”.
Then what is discovered even deeper when you remain open and tender, vulnerable and exposed? Compassion arises, true compassion for self and other as the one self.

In gratitude always for This One Self – Namaste Yantra-ji

Jul 062015

Meeting Papaji – books update

As many of you are aware I have been moved to write two books about meeting Papaji. The first of these books titled ‘Profound Awakening meeting Papaji now -Vol 1‘, is finished being written and is currently scheduled for review by the editor in America at the end of July. This book is the journey of meeting my true teacher – of meeting Papaji NOW – and the profound awakening and freedom that has been possible from that first meeting which occurred 5 years after Papaji had left his physical body and the ongoing deepening power of that meetings reverberation over the subsequent 10-12 years.

The second book with the same title ‘Profound Awakening meeting Papaji now -Vol 2′ – is a collection of the beautiful, incredible, humbling, personal stories of Profound awakening, from people of all different backgrounds, from all around the world, who have also met Papaji after his physical passing. This book is still in the process of being written, with stories continuing to be contributed and interviews being done , transcribed, collated and edited. If you feel called to contribute your own story please let me know.

One of the beautiful women from America, who is contributing her story to this book has a recorded reading of, Papaji’s Poem – ‘Self’, which I would love to share with you. This poem, Self, comes from the book, The Truth Is, a collection of poems and conversations with H.W.L. Poonja, also affectionately known as Papaji. Satya says allow Papaji’s words, along with the healing music and photos to carry you deeply into your own Heart, into the Self. This poem read by Satya, is accompanied by the music “Ko” from the album, Dai Ko Myo, by Akshara Weave. Photos courtesy of Wim Haverkamp, Robert Moon Mullen and other artists.

To watch and listen to this beautiful reading on YouTube
Papaji Poem – ‘Self’ – please click here

In gratitude always for This One Self – Namaste Yantra-ji

Jun 302015

Version 2

A Time for inner reflection

At any moment we can be still, silent and reflective of this life and the grace that lives it.

Sometimes our lifestyle choices create a busyness that seems to causes one to overlook the peace, stillness, beauty and clarity that is always here.

Wintertime is a time of being more inward, slowing down, keeping warm, a time of coming In both physically and energetically. Wintertime has traditionally been a time of inner reflection and introspection, a time of regeneration and renewal.

A few days ago, on the 21st of June we experienced the Winter Solstice in the southern hemisphere, which is the longest night and shortest day.

The daylight hours are only just beginning with the sunrise at at 7am and the evening darkness is already here at 5pm. The outside world, our work schedule, may be wanting constant activity and output from us at the same pace all through the year – so how can we be in alignment with the natural rhythms of life when we are up and out in the dark and not returning home until after dark?

We can consciously use this time, around the winter solstice to pause for reflection.

We can consciously choose to be still.

We can take time to be silent, aware, reflective, quiet.

When you are in constant activity, constant motion, there is the possibility that you over look the huge reservoir of silence that is sustaining, fulfilling, is who you are at the core.

Join us for  inner reflection –

what is discovered when you stop?

when you are still?

when you allow everything ( body, mind, emotions ) to come to rest ? 

There is then the real possibility to experience the truth and peace of yourself, fully, free, already at home.

In gratitude always for This – Namaste Yantra

Jun 232015

Personal Message from Yantra:

IMG_7386-Version-3-150x150-1 copy
It seems an eternity since the last newsletter was sent out to you all. Some of you may be wondering why we have had NO formal Satsang last Tuesday evening and NO Satsang again this week. During the months of May and June there have been so many events, occasions and opportunities, both glorious and moving, calling us to be used in service, to open and deepen, to be present with what is in the moment – this is certainly true for all of us.The roller coaster of life’s seemingly endless waves have been crashing upon all of our shores. This offers the opportunity to be present and real with all of life’s magnificence, all of life’s beauty and all of life’s pain – all of it – life, death, birth – and remain still in it all, experiencing the deeper truth – that who we are, is unaffected.
This does not mean that we close our hearts, that we show no compassion or that we refuse to be joyous, or laugh, or cry, or be moved by the beauty, pain or suffering of the world. To be as you are, here, open, present, free, allows all to be here, all to be embraced, all to be allowed, no matter what! No matter if we are moved to tears, in joy, or in sorrow, no matter if we are exposed to sensory pleasure, or to pain. NO MATTER WHAT is going on in the world of form – we always have the opportunity to be as we are, still, silent, free – in gratitude for it all.
As you are aware one of my dearest friends left her physical form during this time, such an honour to be with her in her last days, to anoint her body and offer prayers and blessings of this one life, whether the body is here or not – her huge love was felt as a physical out pouring from her heart after the body has ceased its physical life – as a reminder that we are not our bodies, we are this endless presence of love, endlessly expressing itself.
We have also had the most wonderful celebration of the birth of form celebrating 50 years of this life called Yantra – such gratitude to all who came to celebrate in this divine offering of music, chanting, blessings and sharing together over the Long weekend. Such gratitude to all who are used in service to this love showing up just as it is.
In saying yes to life, yes to grace, yes to being used in service, sometimes there is the call to be still, sometimes to be in action. There is a way that the body and the mind get used in service – this has nothing to do with what we think we can endure, handle, cope with or master – it is an unexpected push or nudge from grace that does the doing through us. It may leave the body refreshed or weakened ( as in the case of Ramana Maharshi with his emancipated body ) – yet the shining radiance is what continues.
After this body being used so intensely over these last few weeks there has been a huge call to rest, to be physically still and silent, to be in retreat – grace showing up in the form of a hospital stay. As I continue to sit in the hospital room, in silent gratitude, reflecting and typing this message to you, the physical body is recovering, and so full of love and gratitude for all that is here, all that we are, all that is offered. For all of you who endlessly dive deeper into this silence of your own self, I bow in gratitude to this one life showing up in all it’s forms as each one of us.
This Tuesday evening where ever you are, take the time to stop, to rest, be as you are, I will be with you as we open and deepen together as this one self, not separated by time or space -  AND – I look forward to physically sitting in Satsang again with you soon.
Love Always – Namaste Yantra


May 052015

Here as unmoving Awareness

Here as unmoving awareness

What has you be here, stay here, as unmoving awareness ?- nothing and everything !
What has you move – don’t even touch that thought – just stay here – as you are – unmoving awareness
What has you stay here – don’t even touch that thought – just stay here – as you are – unmoving awareness
What do you discover?

There is nothing that you can do, be, have, or get, to be what you already are – This that you are is unmoving awareness – Any movement arises out of This and falls back into This. Unmoving awareness is the ground of your being, your Self, the truth of who you are. You cant find it, you cant loose it, you cant obtain it, nothing can give it to you – This that you are, is this that you are -  here, unwavering, unmoving, silent, present, free, now, aware. This that you are needs nothing, requires nothing, is nothing!

The endless nothing of being itself.
When you stay here as you are, you discover the truth -
This that you are, is always!

These meetings in Satsang are the opportunity to stop now, to be here now, to be as you are. This that you are is revealed freshly in the moment, untouched, untainted by any of life’s circumstances or by any of life’s movements.

This that you are, is always.

Satsang is the opportunity to come together as we are, to tell the truth, to be ruthlessly honest, to meet our self and each other as the one self – innocently, freshly, freely. Let us meet here! Here, now, where we are, in the silence and freedom of the Self, as Shining awareness, as Radiance, as Love itself !

In all love for this that you are
Namaste Yantra-ji

Apr 272015


stay here as you are

Stay Here as you Are

This past week has been such a blessed week of Satsang, two Satsang evenings, one with Yantra and one with Lisa, followed by a full day Satsang retreat with Lisa on Sunday – blessed life indeed.

At the beginning of the retreat, Lisa asked the question of the group – ‘Why are you here?’

There were of course many answers, as everyone has an individual reason for attending. Something different arose for me -  when i asked that question ‘Why was I here? ( there in retreat ) There was no answer, the mind searched for one, and one couldn’t be found – the truth was, there was no reason for me to be there, ‘I’, the mind, this form, had no reason at all to be there, what a relief in that, a blessing in that, a gift in that – no reason – Just This – This that lives this life, This that directs this life, This that moves this life, This that IS this life – Here – with no reason to be here – just here as Here itself!

We can ask the same question of Satsang ‘ Why are you here? What brings you to Satsang?

The mind will always give you a reason – I want to stop this, or finish with that, or understand this, or know that, or let go of this, or attain that – What if you were to ask again, as a deeper question – Why are you really here? What brings you to Satsang? What do you want? What do you hope it will give you ? – When you are ruthlessly honest, then a deeper answer can be revealed.

There may be many reasons – to be still, to know yourself, to rest in freedom, to see what has you move from here. There are so many beautiful, legitimate, honest reasons – all leading us back to the self.
Whatever the reason – what if you were to just be still, to be here and allow this that you are to be the reason that you are here – then you discover this that is here – is you – you are here – here is you !

During the retreat another question was asked of everyone – How are you a victim?

Again there were so many ways, the mind could come up with so many ‘hows’ – because of this and that and the other. What was discovered freshly for me was that being a victim can ONLY show up if I move from ‘Here’, Moving from here ONLY occurs if a thought is followed – a thought of body, mind, emotion – all of it, is a movement from Here. Without the movement, there is no victim, there is no story, there is no self, there is no other, there is nothing other than Here! So simple! So Clear!

What has you move from here?
What has you stay here as you are?

When you stay here as you are, you discover the truth - This that you are, is always!

These meetings in Satsang are the opportunity to stop now, to be here now, to be as you are. This that you are is revealed freshly in the moment, untouched, untainted by any of life’s circumstances or by any of life’s movements.

This that you are, is always.

Satsang is the opportunity to come together as we are, to tell the truth, to be ruthlessly honest, to meet our self and each other as the one self – innocently, freshly, freely. Let us meet here! Here, now, where we are, in the silence and freedom of the Self, as Shining awareness, as Radiance, as Love itself !

In all love for this that you are
Namaste Yantra-ji

Apr 132015

images-4 copy

Here as the truth of who you are

When we are willing to be here, just as we are, we are free.

You may say, but here as I am, I am fearful, I am angry, I am lost, I am hurt, I am heart broken. Admitting the truth that is here now, in this moment, is the first step in realising what else is here, what is deeper, what is closer. When we are willing to speak the truth about what is here, instead of covering, avoiding, placating, trying to fix, then there is an opening that becomes available, a deeper crack into what is being revealed.

There is nothing wrong with an emotion that arises. The mind, society, conditioning may say otherwise, yet if you are wiling to be here with whatever is here, without making it wrong, without trying to change it, without trying to fix it, without moving away in any of your habitual strategies, then there is the opportunity to experience what is untouched by any of it.

Over Easter I read this profoundly, simple and true quote from the beloved teacher Gangaji

“Under the anger, under the fear, under the despair, under the broken heartedness, there is a radiance that has never been harmed, that has never been lost, that is the truth of who one is.

No matter your life circumstances, no matter what is here now, there is a radiance that has never been harmed, that has never been lost. This is the truth – here, in the willingness to be with whatever is, under it all, under whatever is arising, here, is this that you are, here, silent, untouched, aware and free. Shining awareness, Radiance itself !

My beloved teacher Papaji says there is nothing other than here! No past, no future, not even any present, only here!

Satsang is the opportunity to come together as we are, to tell the truth, to meet our self and each other as the one self – innocently, freshly, freely. Let us meet here! Here, now, where we are, in the silence and freedom of the Self, as Shining awareness, as Radiance itself ! Here as the truth of who you are!

In all love for this that you are
Namaste Yantra-ji

Apr 062015

( excerpt from: Profound Awakening – Meeting Papaji Now – Vol 1 – Yantra-ji)


The choice to be Free – Fulfillment of your deepest longing :

Essentially there is no difference at all between you and me – There is only the giving of your self fully, to the choice to be free. ~ Yantra-ji
You have to decide right now to be free once and for all. Everyone who has found freedom in this lifetime has had to make this decision. ~ Papaji

You like me, have had a deep longing, a desire to be free, a desire to know yourself, a sense that there was essentially something more, something that was being missed, overlooked. Maybe you meditate or come to Satsang – something has you come to Satsang. You have all had a taste, a glimpse, of your essential self, otherwise you couldn’t be reading this, you couldn’t have this longing.
What do you really want at the deepest level, deeper than anything else?
When we investigate this question we see that on the surface there are many desires and wants, survival wants and superficial wants and desires. First there are the desires of survival, the desire to be housed, fed, have something to drink, a safe space to live – if you live in a war zone you want to be safe! But in the west and here in this country, we are safe. We are housed, we are fed.
So we look then, what are the next desires?
To be loved, to be liked, to be respected, to be happy. There comes a point where you see that even when those desires are fulfilled, you are not fulfilled. To have things, material things, even when those desires are fulfilled, you are not fulfilled. To have relationships and even when those desires are fulfilled, there is still something left unfulfilled. There is this calling, a calling of you to investigate, what is true. And so that then is the choice, to follow the call of your own heart, to follow the call of This that is living you, not born of the mind, not born of thought, not born of identity, not born of social norms, but the call of This that is deeper, This that you are.
Have you had a deep longing, a desire to be free, a desire to know yourself?
Do you have a sense that there was essentially something more, something that was being missed, overlooked?
Do you meditate or attend Satsang?
Have you had a taste, a glimpse, of your essential self?
When you have had a taste of This, an experience of the truth of your own self, is there now nothing else that you want MORE than This?
Are you still searching, or is This that you experience yourself as, enough?
Are you willing to give your attention to this opening, to This, at the same time as life is occurring?
Is there a choiceless choice to surrender, to give everything to This, to the moment, to what is true?
Are you unwavering in your commitment to be still, to be silent, to honour and live from what is here, what is real?

So you have the call, the opportunity to make the choice to be true, to be free, to not move, to stay still, silent as you are – then you experience yourself as this that is deeper, unchanging, unmoving, silent, free, awareness, always here, always present – life continues, as it does – and you are free.
The willingness to be still, to inquire, opens the opportunity for you to experience the truth of who you are, that you are both nothing and everything. That this whole life of needing to do and gain and get and be, is nothing – AND – at the same time, a beautiful, wonderful, play of creation, of sharing, of experiences.

So this question:
What do you want at the core, at the deepest level, beyond all of the superficial desires? What do you really want? This is the essential question!
It is one thing to say that you want freedom!
Is it true that you want freedom, whilst wanting your identity, whilst wanting to be safe, whilst wanting to be in control, whist wanting to be loved?
In Satsang, it is speaking the truth to yourself, about what is here, about what you want and then giving yourself to it. The willingness to stay still, the willingness to allow life to move you, rather than you constantly moving in life, against life, away from life, rushing towards life. Satsang is this incredible opportunity in this lifetime to stop, to rest as you are and then you discover, that Satsang isn’t the person or the room, or the teacher or the teaching. Satsang is you, Satsang is consciousness, Satsang is this that is living your life every moment, no matter who you are, no matter where you are.
Satsang is this offering of your own self, the choice to be free and to stay true to that.

My beloved teacher Papaji says :
“You have two choices: Either you follow most teachers and spend your life trying to remove or clean out the mind. First you will have to find out if the mind exists. No one has seen the mind. Even if you found it, how do you propose to clean it? Everyone is practicing cleaning the mind but there is no one so far who has cleaned it. Where is this mind to be cleaned?
The second choice is to keep quiet and you will know who really you are. This is very simple. It is not going to take you time; in fact time does not appear. There is nothing outside that can help you, you have just to keep quiet – that’s all – and you will know then you are eternal. You are Eternal Existence itself.” ~ Papaji

Satsang is the opportunity to come together as we are, to tell the truth, to meet our self and each other as the one self – innocently, freshly, freely. Let us meet here in the silence and freedom of the Self.
In all love for this that you are
Namaste Yantra-ji