Nov 142016
 

Who is this ‘someone’ that is showing up?

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What a privilege it is to share with beloveds in Satsang and the fresh discovery of what is true. Last week we had a very strong inquiry through the questions : Who is this ‘someone’ who is showing up? Who is this ‘someone’ who has a life, who is this ‘someone’ who comes to Satsang? Where are you still identified a ‘someone’, as a ‘somebody?

While we may be aware though numerous Satsang inquiries, or though the personal spiritual search, that the ‘someone’, the ‘somebody’, is just a thought arising, we have the opportunity to really investigate the truth of this, not as an idea or as a concept. Through fully investigating who and what is arising, something new fresh is discovered, revealed to be true.

Investigate for yourself now – Who and where this someone, this identity, this one who has a life, is showing up. Notice first what is here – the body, sensations, emotions, breath. Notice all the ways that you identify, all the naming, all the roles, for this that you identify as. As a man, woman, adult, child, sister, brother, lover, friend, wife, husband, partner, daughter, parent, mother, father, sibling, colleague, worker, boss, employer, the good one, the bad one, nice one, kind one etc etc – there are so many ways we name and keep an identity, an idea of ‘our-self’ in place.

Start by bringing your attention to just one of these ways you identify, one of these namings, one of these roles. Notice as you bring you attention to this, how your body feels, any sensations, any tightening, clenching, notice your emotions, any response internally, physically, emotionally, mentally, without telling yourself any story about this naming / role. Notice how and where this someone is showing up, in your body, in your stance, in your energy, in your actions, in your arrogance, in your projections, in your mind, thoughts, concepts.

Now notice what is really here if you could no longer know yourself as that, no longer be know as that, no possibility of that even existing. What do you notice? What is the truth? What is really discovered? Without any possibility of naming of this role – maybe you discover a sense of contraction or strong emotion, fear, anger, shame, terror – allow that, stay open, what is here as you allow this?

What other roles or naming do you have that is keeping this identified self in place, this that you think of as you, this that you think is you?

Again ask – what is really here if you couldn’t know yourself as that, or be known as that, no possibility of that existing at all, not anywhere in consciousness. What is really here? What do you notice? What is the truth? What is really discovered? – Maybe you notice there are no edges, no boundaries, no definition, nothing solid – Often the instinct arises to protect, to contact, to re- identify. As though we were made of clay, we pat ourselves back into shape, back into the defined, back into the safe secure edges of what is familiar, into the known.

Sometimes it is the core of the identity that arises and is revealed, this that is keeping the whole identifying and ego structure in place. Ask again – If the fearful one, rejected one, shamed one, betrayed one, abandoned one, unsafe one, alone one (…  etc etc ) had no possibility of existing, if you couldn’t be that one, couldn’t know yourself as that one, couldn’t be known as that one – what is really here? What is discovered, what is the truth that underlies, that remains, that is always here, before, during and after these roles, these names, this identifying? If the unmet core fear is under the naming, identifying, go deeper, who you are remains untouched, open wider, go deeper still.

Notice the effort, the contraction in keeping the role, the naming in place. Notice the effortlessness of yourself when you have no possibility of entertaining the existence of that naming. When we remain open rather than contracting, we discover there is ‘no one’ to protect  – we remain as openness itself, as spaciousness itself, as Freedom!!

Remain as this that you are. If naming or identity arises, there is no need to contact, to cling, or to follow. Remain soft, breathing, open – remain as you are, wide open, unknown, boundaryless – Free!

In deepest gratitude for the truth of this One-Self ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Nov 072016
 

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In the face of it all – saying ‘Yes’ to what is.

Often we are faced with situations, circumstances or events where we feel powerless to act, to do something or to make positive change. It may be a physical illness or injury, loss of a relationship or death, it may be unwanted recurring thoughts, or some type of emotional turmoil or other adversity, it may even be a subtle niggle that you cant quite put your finger on. Any situation can have us feel powerless, enraged, fearful or heartbroken. Often we don’t even realise that we are not wanting to feel what is really here, rather we want whatever is occurring to stop so we can go back to our comfortable lives, or to create a comfortable life.

How can we be still and true in the face of any unwanted or unwarranted circumstance, in the face of the worlds adversity, in the face of injustice, in the face of seemingly random events out of our control? First we must be willing to be present to all that is here in the moment, still, silent, un-moving.

Notice whether you are resisting what is here, even subtly are you saying ‘no’ to what is here? When we are willing to be here, to say yes – what is discovered ? Maybe there is a flood of strong emotion, anger, sadness, powerlessness, heart break? Once again notice, are you resting what is here? What would it be like to soften, to just say yes , yes to what is showing up in the moment, without judging it as right or wrong. It is our mind which interprets all that is coming in through the senses, all the thoughts we have about right and wrong, all of our conditioned responses. Without trying to change anything just for a moment allow all that is here. Allow the emotion to be here, without story , what is discovered deeper still.

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the
world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact your heart is made to break;
its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold
ever-more wonders.” – Andrew Harvey

In the allowing, a greater opening is reveled, this that is free of concepts, free of time, free of anything, here is real peace, here is love and equanimity, stillness, silence, beauty. There is the possibility to remain here as this un-moving silent awareness that allows all – then true action can take place , not from a reaction, or mental judgement, not from a need to suppress or avoid – just true action, unknown, fresh, in the moment, free, spontaneous – here there is the possibility to bring this that you are to all.

Join us for an evening of Satsang, discover what is here when we allow everything, when we say yest to what is, discover this that is the freedom of your own self. ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Oct 112016
 

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The Core of Shame:

Shame is an emotion that most people tend to avoid, recoil from and deflect rather than be willing to feel. The words shame and humiliation can be interchangeable, they are two peas in the same pod. It is usually assumed that one is ‘shamed or humiliated’ from someone else, that it is somehow done to us. However like any emotion and feeling response, we feel it where it arises, within us.

If we feel we have been shamed or humiliated when young, we tend to spend much of our lives avoiding situations and circumstances that may trigger this same response. We develop a fearful feeling response, to feeling the emotion of shame or humiliation.

Occasionally life will present a situation where we feel that we are responsible for feeling shame. We may feel ashamed, at something we have said or done, or felt. Usually it is that we feel bad, upset, angry, defensive and ashamed of ourselves, our actions our behaviour, again it is often justified away so that we don’t have to feel the discomfort of it, preferring to blame it on some thing or some one.

As with any feeling response, any emotion, it is just a sensation within the body, it may be subtle or strong, and it is arising and falling. Feeling it cannot harm us, it is the same as feeling any other emotion, anger sadness, joy, pain, fear, love, all arsing and falling.

In the willingness to meet any emotion and remain innocent, un-moving, something else is always revealed, something else is always discovered to be deeper, in the core. The interesting thing about the emotional response of shame, is that when it is freely and fully met without any story, openly innocently freshly, then what remains is humility – yes in the core of shame, in the core of humiliation – is humility. So in avoiding what we fear, we are avoiding such a precious gift of humility itself. The simplicity and awe of meeting ourselves, through wherever arises. Such a gift.

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Humility

I am
Bowed at the feet of God
Needing nothing
Sitting in the lap of God
Resting on the hand of God
Cradled in the heart of God
Seeing through the eyes of God
There is no thought
Embodying all
Rejecting nothing
Grateful
In awe
Humble
I am
God and Self are one

~ Yantra-ji

 

Sep 262016
 
Here here some words from my beloved teacher Papaji as support  ~ Namaste Yantra-ji

“When you are out walking and you become tired you stop, you sit down, you relax. So when you get tired of trying to find solutions to your problems, when you find no solution, sit down. By sit down I mean, don’t try to solve the problem at all – the problem is in the past, it is not now. Don’t think about past problems, just leave them alone and sit down. This is the moment of relaxation. You only have to allow this, listen to it, do not do anything.

Just listen: Don’t go to the past. The past is a problem, the past is mind. When you go to the past all will be problems so don’t go to the past. The mind is the past and the past is a graveyard. Don’t go to the graveyard. All problems are dead, so return to this moment without trying to solve the problem. Trying has put you in trouble, so don’t touch this trying any more.
Simply sit down, keep quiet. Keep quiet for one moment. This is the moment you need, this is the moment of rest. Keep quiet for a moment without going to the past and you will find relaxation. There is no other way – simply do not think of the past. First help yourself – which means to not think – and then if you still need to you can ask me for help.
Just for this moment do not think, but direct your mind to its Source. Bring the mind which is thinking – which is going to the past – to face this present moment, and this will give you eternal rest.
Help yourself not to look to past moments and do you find any problems? In this moment, without going to the past, where is the problem? Has it gone away? Then you have helped yourself. This is truly Self help.” ~ Papaji

Sep 052016
 

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Are you willing ?

You say you want to be true, to be free, to be your self, but do you really?

Are you willing to risk everything in order to be free here now ?

Are you willing to see what the unconscious habits and tendencies are that keep the cycle of upset, denial and fluctuating emotional responses in play ?

There is often some habit, behaviour or reaction that reoccurs in ones life, that we seem somehow to be oblivious to.

Are you willing to pierce the lie of what you have been believing to be true about you, about others, about life?

Are you willing to see, to experience, to feel the truth of how this plays out in your life, no matter how uncomfortable that may be, to face everything that you have ever felt and believed to be true?

This willingness is the entryway to being true.

What dos this mean to face everything? – it means just that – everything – face everything that you have ever felt and believed to be true, the lie of ego and the illusion of separation. To come face to face with what you are running towards, or away from, or moving against – be it love, connection, unworthiness, un-lovability, betrayal, safety, fear, security, loss, control, rejection, sex, lust, longing, needs, being right, wrong, blamed, not knowing – the list goes on and on ….

It is in the willingness to be true that all can be revealed.

You will see all the ways you move and dodge and weave in order to get or avoid some version of what you are hoping will fulfill you, complete you or give you what you are longing for. There is nothing for you to actually ‘do’ other that be open to the truth of what has been habitually occurring, and open to the deeper truth that has always remained untouched by any of it.

What do you really want? – now you can be real, now you can be truthful in making this choice when you say you want to be true, to be free, to be your self – In the willingness to speak the truth of your own self, you discover that you have always been FREE !!
Namaste ~ Yantra-ji

“We are so blessed to have the opportunity in this lifetime to sit in silence, to reflect, to inquire into the nature of truth and Self. Come home to yourself ! Who you really are at the core, in this very moment, is this that has always been here, this that always Is, the silent unchanging awareness” – Namaste Yantra-ji

Aug 222016
 

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Meeting Death – Meeting Life

We have just offered a one-day Satsang Retreat ‘Meeting Death – Meeting Life’ – an invitation to really open, to meet death and meet life fully.
Many beloveds came to share in this sacred and tender time together, taking the opportunity to explore, to inquire, and to ask deeper questions about death, pain, life, love, loss, identity:
What is death?

Who is born, and who or what is it that dies?

What is never born and never dies?

What is here when we remain in the story of ‘if only’ or ‘what if’ or ‘why’?

How can we truly love, if we are holding back from fully meeting all that is here?

When we are available to meet all that arises, all of the pain, the shock, the heart break just as it is, the rawness, the realness of whatever arises in the moment – what is discovered?

How can we bear the pain of death, of loss?

How can we bear all of the suffering and the tragedy, in our own lives and in the world?

We have all heard the saying ‘Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional’ – in the willingness to remain open we discover the truth, a peace that is always here, in the midst of all pain.
The ongoing invitation is to take this opportunity, to open freshly into the discovery of what is here when there is a willingness to meet everything, uncensored. Discover what remains untouched by death.  In the meeting of death fully, something fresh is discovered – we are here, fully present, able to love fully, to meet life fully – as life itself.

The month of August is the anniversary of the passing and the funeral of my teenage son Cohen, who died unexpectedly in a car accident on the 21st August in 2012. At this time, over the past 3 years, we have offered a 10 day memorial in our home from the 21st – 31st August. This has been a time of retreat and inner reflection, a time of introspection, support and sharing for friends, family and our community to gather together, a time to really meet death and life fully.

This year the mysterious hand of grace was calling me to offer in a different way. As many of you are aware since moving from the Northern Beaches of Sydney last year to the beautiful Glenning Valley on The Central Coast, we have been offering one-day retreats. This year through this mysterious call of grace, this one-day retreat “Meeting Death – Meeting Life’, was called into being, occurring on the 21st August, on the anniversary of my son’s passing.

All I can ever do is to say yes to this call, to surrender, and allow this offering to come through.

~ Namaste Yantra-ji.

Aug 152016
 

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‘Be’ here as you are!
It is an interesting thing the mind, and the thoughts that arise. Most people instantly believe the content of the thoughts that arise without question and are unaware that the mind is not who they are.

Recently I shared with you that I was nudged by grace to set the date for our August Satsang retreat on the 4 year anniversary of my sons death. I have learnt to trust these nudges regardless of the arising of the mind. Even so I became aware of a single thought – that went something like this ‘you don’t know how you will ‘be’ on that day’ – it was a great opportunity to really take a look at this thought – and to share with you what arose.

We often have these types of thoughts, How will I be? ..Can I cope?.. What will happen then?… etc … so what does this actually mean, how will I ‘be’? – in the thoughts world of creation, it is relating to physically, mentally, emotionally and energetically – so the truth is we can never know how we will be in any of these states of form other than here right now.

The truth is there is never a time that we will know how we will ‘be’, or ‘feel’ or ‘act’ in the future. We do not know how we will ‘be’ in the next moment, the next week, the next year. We do not know how we will be in any circumstance or situation. We may have an inkling or a nudge to follow, even so, there is nothing other than here now, so we can never know anything other that this experience that is happening right here, right now.

The arising of these types of thoughts are the minds way of asserting some type of control over a situation that cannot be controlled, trying to create a sense of the known, a sense of safety and security in the unknown. This projection of a thought into the future creates a sense of fear ( along with other emotional responses ) to have you be wary of what is to come – it is part of the animal survival mechanism, yet has no real place in truth.

Who you are is here now, as this unchanging awareness. There is such freedom in the act of inquiry to see through the lie and limitations of the egoic survival drives – what remains is the peace and freedom that is always and has always been here – as you .

The next time any thought arises, notice what the content is, notice regardless of the content how the thought is not relevant to this moment, allow your attention and awareness to remain here, present as your own self untouched by any rippling of these thought waves. If an emotional response arises, the same is true, allow it to be as it is, arising and falling, the same is also true for any bodily reaction, they all come and go, they all arise and pass.

Be here as you are! Keep your attention here, on what cannot change, the changeless – you are That !

All love always – Namaste Yantra-ji

 

Aug 012016
 

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The True Invitation of Satsang

My beloved teacher Papaji said ‘Call Off The Search’ – Have you ? Have you called of the search?

If not, why not?

What are you still searching for, waiting for, wanting?


If we treat Satsang as just a short time to come together, as just another experience, then go back to our lives, we miss a precious opportunity.
What if this were the only opportunity?

What if there was not another Satsang, not another meeting, not another retreat, no other time to ask a question, no other time to speak the truth, to discover what is here? – What would you ask now? What is it that you would want now?

Right here, right now, is the only moment there is, there is not another. We live as though there will always be another time, a next time, a next moment.

What if you were to stop, and experience the truth of this moment here, now, only here? No movement of mind, no following of thought, no following of sensation or emotion, what is truthfully discovered here, now?

Maybe there is something that needs to be met? If so, open to that, and them what is discovered to be deeper?

What is freshly discovered here?

This that you are cannot be discovered anywhere other that here where you are – You cannot be anywhere other than here.

So what is here?

When will this, that you have already discovered as your own self, be enough?

Beloved Papaji says ‘I have given you a Jewel and you throw it away’ – so I ask again, when really, will this that you have already discovered to be your own self be enough?

Give your attention here, to this, this that is only to be found here, not to something that was experienced before, as some wondrous phenomenal experience that you are trying to cling to, and not later to some sought after experience that you are seeking to re-create.

Stop seeking and thinking that this that you are is ‘something’, discover this that is nothing – nothing means nothing, no thing, no thought, no experience, no emotion, no sensation.

Yes really nothing – give your attention here, to this that is already ‘here as you’!  – and you will discover this that is nothing, fresh, free, never before discovered.

Discover this that is always and remain as that !

~ Namaste Yantra-ji

Jul 252016
 

Celebrating Guru Purnima ( Guru Poornima )
On Tuesday evening the 19th July, it was the full moon celebration of Guru Purnima.

The name ‘Guru Purnima’ comes from ‘Guru’ referring to ‘the teacher’ and ‘Purnima’ referring to ‘the full moon’. There are many days and types of Puja ( prayer, offerings and ritual ) celebrated on the full moon in the Hindu calendar.

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Still swimming in the divine grace of this love as we celebrated Guru Purnima, dedicated to and honouring of the Guru, the True Teacher, the Sat-Guru, this that is the One-Self – Whilst celebrations were occurring in Papaji’s Satsang Bhavan in Lucknow India, we joined the festivities starting the day here in Australia with outdoor yoga, chanting, prayers, offerings and preparations for our Beloved Sangha family to arrive for the evening festival – clear night sky, magnificent full moon, Puja fire, prayers and offerings, Chai and food, poetry readings from ‘The gift of This’, Papaji Satsang DVD ‘Worship’, chanting and prasad – the presence and fragrance of our recently departed friend was palpable and felt by all in the love, in the flowers, in the devotion.

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The name ‘Guru Purnima’ comes from ‘Guru’ referring to ‘the teacher’ and ‘Purnima’ referring to ‘the full moon’. There are many days and types of Puja ( prayer, offerings and ritual ) celebrated on the full moon in the Hindu calendar.

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Guru Purnima originated as a nation wide Hindu festival, stemming from honouring the Guru Vyasa (Srila Vyasadeva, who it is said, wrote the 4 Vedas that were recited by the Lord Brahma). Guru Purnima is often referred to as Vyasa Purnima. From that time, a day was dedicated towards the Guru, and traditionally it is the day when the guru is worshiped. 
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Today it has become an honouring and celebration dedicated to all Guru’s or teachers, regardless of whether you are a Hindu or not – and an honouring of and dedication to, the Sat-Guru, the true teacher within ones own self.

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Guru Purnima is a time of honouring and gratitude, a celebration of my beloved teacher Papaji ( Sri H.W.L Poonja ) and his teacher Sri Ramana Maharshi, who have both been relentless and unwavering silent pointers to the Truth. It is also a beautiful time to share in the celebration and honouring of your own Guru or Teacher, and the Sat-Guru – the true teacher, this that IS YOUR OWN SELF. 

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Arunachala, Ramana, Papaji, I am forever at your feet

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In gratitude to all teachers – In honour of The Sat-Guru, this that you are

Namaste Yantra-ji

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Jul 182016
 

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When is enough, enough? When is the time, the right time?

You have the opportunity to experience the truth of yourself and the truth of freedom right now, as you – so what is stopping you ?

You have had many glimpses, teachers, experiences, asked many questions, had many desires fulfilled. You have the opportunity of being here and discovering the truth right now – not now and then again later – fully now, right now.

Why waste another moment moving, searching?

Why continue to live your life with the attitude of, yes I have and I’ll get back to that, or a some day one day kind of way, or there is enough time, or I’ll get to it later, tomorrow, the next day or next week, or there’s s plenty of time, or I don’t have time.What if you were to really speak the truth here now – This is the only time you have, this moment right now!

My beloved teacher Papaji says why postpone it?

When you have had even one glimpse of the truth, why throw it away?

You already know the truth of this – this is the ONLY time – here now – the only moment that you have.
If you only had the opportunity to ask one question – What would you ask?

If you could only have one desire fulfilled – what is it that you really want?

Are you prepared to let go, face, feel, here now?

Are you prepared to STOP actually stop, stop everything and discover the truth – the endless fathomless truth that cannot be covered, lost or discarded.

This is the opportunity of Satsang, this is Papaji’s invitation and this is my invitation to you – be still and silent, stop every movement of mind here, now and discover what is already and always has been free – then remain here, where you are, as you are – you are That !!

In peace and love to all – Namaste Yantra-ji